kicking it old skool

This blog has become like a strained relationship. The kind where you missed a friend’s birthday party, even though you said you’ll definitely be there. You’re stuck in this “uncomfortable silence” stage where each one is waiting for the other to break the ice. It’s also become just like my photo album, where only the “nice” events get recorded and all the death, disability and bad haircuts stay out.

And since this blog has yet to achieve sentience, I guess I have to be the bigger person.

To recap, in a nutshell, bottom line and bulleted version, is as follows:

Been really bitter and fucking miserable for a long time. Oh not anymore, just a couple of weeks ago.

At first I thought I was just pissed off at a lot of things and together they add up to make my life as miserable as possible. But on closer inspection, I found the bitterness sprang from the eternal fountain of misery of running my own business. I was just pissed off with the whole thing, because it hadn’t really taken off quite like I would have liked it to. My conclusion was ultimately that people are assholes and mankind’s rights to exist should be fucking revoked. Of course I’ve known this to be true for the longest of time but for some reason I required another lesson in reality.

I’ve come to realize my biggest obstacle is not the technology or all the little stupid nuances that manifest themselves that you have to deal with and find solutions to. Heck, not even funding the whole operation. It’s people. It’s people and the stupid shit they do. Like you setup a meeting, do the proposals, take time off in your day, drive in rush-mother-fucking-traffic, get there all fired up… only to find that the fucker forgot about the meeting. Wash, rinse, repeat, maybe we can try for next week-blah-blah-bullshit.

So yes, I love being in control of my own destiny. I hate people. The supreme irony is that I’m NOT in control of my own destiny (yet) and that I NEED these assholes to play ball. So I’ll put on my “[potential].customer-is-always-right” smile, get all dressed up and try again. And again. And again.

Moving along to more positive pastures, I’ve rediscovered my inner child and learnt the fine art of not giving a fuck so much when you have absolutely no control over it. It’s a wasted emotion.

Also, my relationship with my girlfriend has been going really really well. Going on 7 months now, she still manages to give me butterflies in my stomach. Weird, but true. What I like most about her (apart that she’s an absolute minx) is that she is Uber-Easy to get along with. She doesn’t have nearly as many hang-ups usually associated with the female of the species, and I gotta tell you, I’ve had my share of admin.

Had a killer weekend as well!! Saddled up about 18 folks (from my group of friends, hooked up with Dubai Bob and his clan of when we arrived there) for a little road trip up to P.E to watch S.A vs. France. We had an AWESOME time. Dubbed the “little fishing village by the sea” by some locals, it was the perfect getaway for us yuppies. The whole town was fucking buzzing man, prolly cus it’s the first real rugby game they’ve hosted in about 2 years! It had more of a High School sporting event rather than an international fixture feel to it, which we all soaked up gingerly. Of course, the fact that we kicked ass and took names (score: 27 – 13) helped a whole lot! The French legion (a.k.a my French Housemate and his 7 buddies) did not enjoy it as much, however. They’re a proud nation, I don’t blame them and we kind of wiped the deck with their team. I guess we could have been nicer to the visitors…

Way too many things to mention about the weekend’s happenings. Have a stack of pics too, but I’ll have to fire up picassa at home. I could just mention that Sunday afternoon I laughed so hard I thought my insides where going to explode. We where recapping Saturday evenings events and I wish I could go into more detail, but most of that shit was illegal.

Haven’t laughed (and meant it) in such a long time, so it was a nice change.

And that I guess wraps it up. It’s about all I can remember for now, and considering the weekends drinking etc, it was quite a tall order from the offset. I think more updates now and again should be in order.

[G], out

now wanted by at least TWO cities…